About trust

At first hand, now that my so called relationship ended, I thought that I will never trust anyone again. Well that is kind of a true, it will be hard to trust again. But more importantly I am afraid of trusting my self. Trusting my self not to do same mistake, than with him. Trusting on my opinion of my self and not be affected by someone with their own agenda.

I got lost there for a moment. Gladly I had so great friends, who were there pulling me back to my own ways and own life. And well that I can trust, that they won't let me fall again that bad. Also I think that, now I have too much pride and love towards my self, that I wouldn't let anyone trash me again.

Best part is that you know, you can trust your friends more than your self at moments. Also beeing able to say how good it feels to be finally free, feels incredible. And I have to say, I am not saying all gays are shit and stuff. Just met that really bad one. 

Now it is all about me. And things that I love. Even though those might seem stupid. Summer of rap music, Finnish baseball, working out and friends. My kind of hippie!